At the beginning of the year, we all set the goals we would like to achieve, and I was not left behind. Mine included losing weight, healing from trauma and furthering my studies. Did I accomplish all, some or none of my goals? Read on to find out.
This will be the second last post to end the year and today I will be taking stock right along with you, to see if I accomplished the goals I set out to do when this year began. As you can see, I have listed my goals in this planner. It said list five, but I listed six haha. So, let’s see if I actually accomplished them.
To do at least two ACCA units
Last post I mentioned that I am currently studying and working. I am an ACCA student and I had planned to do at least two units. I am required to have completed thirteen units in total, and so far I have completed five, so eight more to go. Unfortunately, this year I only managed to do one unit, Taxation, otherwise known as TX. I wasn’t aware that my school only enrolled evening class students twice a year only (January and July), since it was my first time being an evening class student. Taxation was quite intense, so let's just say I am glad it's the only one I did heh.
To secure a job (contract or permanent position)
In my last post on the point of going for an interview for the first time, I mentioned that I secured the position I interviewed for. Well, the position is a fixed-term contract for one year, in an amazing organization. Honestly, sometimes I pinch myself, because I cannot believe that it actually happened. I will be starting in January and I hope for nothing but the best! I always dedicate my career to God, and I believe Him opening this door will open me up to further opportunities.
One day I will share with you the full story of how everything unfolded, and I bet you will see that ONLY GOD could have made it happen.
To heal from trauma I have been holding onto for years
The past decade of my life has been filled with really happy times and incredible milestones, but it has also been filled with very turbulent times. Just like everyone else, I have been through my fair share of ‘stuff’ that I wasn’t ready to unpack and process through until this year. I promised myself that I will begin to deal with my stuff and allow God to heal my heart. I am still a work in progress, but I am much better than I was in the past. I have made huge strides in my healing journey and I thank God. Which leads me to my next point.
To lose fat and add muscle. (weight to be 65-70 kgs)
Despite leading an active lifestyle for almost a decade, I constantly found myself feeling dissatisfied with how my body looked and felt like. I constantly felt heavy and ‘big’, even though I wouldn't be seen as that. This year, my fitness goal was to ‘feel at home in my body’. I included the weight number aspect just to make the goal measurable. I had to start by addressing my trauma. Surprise that I would start with this right? Did you know that you can lead an active lifestyle but fail to reach your fitness goals because of your mental and emotional state? Did you know that your body can literally hold on to excess weight because of trauma you have been through? My current read is called ‘How To Do The Work’ by Dr. Nicole LePera, and there is a chapter whereby she explains how the body does this. I am still growing in my understanding of the science of it all, but I can see that this was my issue. I had to first address my mental and emotional pain, do the work like journaling, breathing exercises and therapy to release that trauma, so that I could see the changes I desired on my body.
I then began to watch my portions of food. I slashed them by half! I used to eat a lot more than I needed to honestly. Then, I began doing new forms of exercises like Pilates and weight training at the gym, to challenge myself more and tone my muscles. I don’t care much about numbers, but last time I was measured, my weight was at 72kgs from 78kgs. I have dropped from a size large to medium or small, and most importantly, I feel at home in my body, finally.
To grow closer to God and find community again
My faith in Jesus is what anchors me and keeps me afloat in the midst of the turbulent times in life. That’s why I make it a priority to grow closer to God by making time for daily devotion, prayer, spending time in nature, and attending church. Despite not being perfect in these things, I have known God as A Father who loves me unconditionally even when I am imperfect. I thought I had to work so hard to get God’s love and attention, but His love comes first, then from His love, He shapes and molds me to the person He wants me to be. On the community front, God allowed me to meet and join the fellowship group at my workplace. Every morning we would meet, worship God together, listen to the Word and join in prayer. it was honestly the best part of my day. I also appreciate my sisters in Christ at Unscripted. We have the best conversations and I am so blessed to have them. There is still quite a lot of healing I need to do when it comes to Godly community, but this year I have learned that it is still possible to find security in community again.
To consistently show up online + my blog and grow my following(let’s reach 1k+ this year)
In this area, in all honesty, I have not thrived hehe. Consistency is something I struggle with and going into 2024, I am trusting in God to help me do better. In my blog, there are some months whereby I was consistent, but then I suddenly stopped posting. In my social media, the same story. On social media, the only way to grow is by being consistent, which I wasn’t, so my socials barely grew. Regardless, I know I am called to this and hope to do better in the future. I have a responsibility to nurture my gift in writing and creativity to its fullness and inspire the people I have been called to.
As you can see, there are goals I was able to accomplish this year, while there are some I failed to. Some of the reason why I didn't were in my control, some were not. Regardless, I leave this year feeling GRATEFUL for everything.
Thank you so much for reading through, and I will see you in tomorrow's post which will be the last one of 2023.
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